Day 26: Apathy Is Death
Apathy is easy. It’s the vulnerable and honest that takes real work. Heart work.
But that’s the stuff worth fighting for.
We feel the tension in hard, candid conversations that we keep putting off. We feel it in the broken relationships that don’t seem mendable. We feel it in our attempts to mask the messy and call it clean. It feels easier to just ignore and pretend. It feels easier to turn on the TV and keep ourselves busy.
But apathy is death. It is lifeless. When we choose apathy, we are proclaiming that we give up, giving in to the lies of defeat.
I’ve known stories of estranged relationships; I’ve witnessed them break and crumble, I’ve walked through the rubble, wondering how anyone could let the disconnect reach this point. I’ve seen the hurt and heard the words of remorse, of regret. I’ve watched the destruction of pride and the aftershocks of bitterness.
When we are choosing those dark seeds – pride, bitterness, anger – we are choosing apathy. We are choosing to not fight for our relationships, for joy, for love. We are choosing to give in and to believe that grace isn’t worthy of our breath.
The apathy of others is scaring. It has effected me in ways that brings a lot of sadness, but also a sharp and ever-present prompting.
I don’t want to shut down and disengage. I don’t want to put things off and pretend like everything is fine when it isn’t. I want to have the hard conversations and ask the tough questions and grow closer because of it. I want to fight for those I love and never stop fighting. I want to work really dang hard to see these dreams in my heart become reality and I want to see grace become a way of life.
Are you with me? Let’s get out of bed tomorrow and open our eyes. Let’s be excited by the opportunity we have to engage fully because what a gift that is. Let’s honor the pain we feel by not ignoring it but choosing to see it with new eyes. And let’s fight the numbing. Let’s be aware. I think that’s the bravest thing we will ever do.